Let it snow... I don't care now

Use to be a time when it would snow and I just would hate those days because that meant that I would be having to drive in it to work or home.  When the snowing was considered a blizzard, that is when it was really tricky getting to work or home from work,. Mainly because of the condition of the road and trying to figure out where the road ended and the ditch began.  It would take twice as long to get to where your going and I would almost always have a headache by the time I got to work or home from just white knuckle driving.  Now.... it just doesn't matter if it snow lightly or heavy... I AIN'T GOIN ANYWHERE !!!

I just make sure that I listen to what the weather is going to be like and shop accordingly.  I stock up and make sure we all that we need and if we are stuck in the house for a week before getting dug out,, so be it.  I will just sit in my craft room, work on a project, drink some nice hot coffee and feel sorry for all of those that have to drive in it, like I did for some 30 years.  I now live the life I have been working for.... relaxed, slow paced.  LIFE IS GOOD.

Blessings and Joy

I really don't mind aging, because there are lots of times that I feel smarter now about a lot of things.  However there are things I don't like, the number one thing I don't like is the way I look now.  I have tried all kinds of lotions, potions, "secrets" and anything that I can afford to buy to try and backtrack on what mother nature has done to my face and body.  Well I think it is time to just accept it and turn my energy on other things.

I found this morning that I need to count my blessings and find job in what is around me.  So with that in  mind I decided  look around for the blessings and joy. Of course the #1 job and blessings in my life is having the greatest family in the world. One joy I found this morning that I really love is the retractable cord on my toaster.  I know that this sounds silly but think about it ... whether you store you toaster on a shelf or in a cupboard, you have to do something with the cord.  If you leave it on your counter you still have to try and keep as much of the cord behind or hidden someplace.  With my toaster that is the one problem I don't have to worry about, I just have to worry about where to store it.

Decision Made

I was going to use this blog as a journal on me and my feelings.  After thinking about it long and hard, I have decided that I will not allow myself to log anything on this blog unless it is happy, silly, funny, etc.  I do not need to burden anyone with what emotions I might be going through at the time.  I am going to work really really hard at handling the negative emotions that I deal with.  So to any family and friends that read this, I apologize for past emotions.

So on a lighter note, when we came home from taking Tom's car in for a complete physical, there was two dogs(labs) running around our yard.  Needless to say our dog Buttons (small dog), charged after them sounding all mean and brave.  They are friendly dogs (I believe that they belong to the local car dealership) and travel the neighborhood on a regular bases.  I just don't understand why people let their dogs run freely like that.  I just thought that it was funny how our little dog ran off two bigger dogs.  

What to do after Winter...

I actually don't mind winter as long as it is not brutally cold.  I do find though that I get anxious when it come right down to the end or around the month of April.  I want to get out there in the yard and start messing around the garden and removing anything that reminds me of winter unless there is a lot of snow around. 

This year I am trying to figure out what to do with my big vegetable garden area.  I am thinking of splitting it in half.  The back half for my vegies, since my husband doesn't really eat them and then using the front half as a play area for my grandkids and great-grandkids.  I will leave the fencing up to keep it in a more protected area and to keep critters out. That means that I am going to have to invest in outdoor play things.  I wish I lived close to all of my babies.... that way I would become a daycare just for my family.  This year I will be picking up Graycen and Parker to bring them up here to stay for a week.  I will involve them with what I can do to make it a fun play area which means we might have to do some garage sales to find things.  I actually starting to get excited about this plan.

Do I Make a Difference?

When raising your children, you work hard and to the best of your ability, to do what you think is right in teaching them.  Hoping that between your lessons, school lessons, and those little growing up lessons that your children grow up understanding what life is general about and succeed in life.  They will continue to learn lesson as they mature, make their own marks and changes in their lives. As a parent, you hope that you make a difference in the lives of your children, but when does that end or does it.  When they finally step away from us to make their own lives, their own family, and their friends.... do we still make a difference or can we still make a difference?  Is it our roll now to step back and just watch?  I know that we will still see them, visit them, hug them, but are we still needed.  I think I have a problem with needing to know that I am still needed.  I am not sure what I would want to be needed for, but I have a problem of feeling left out.  I have no reason to believe that I need to always be there but an occasional contact of wanting to know how things are going and a lunch date would make a world of difference. But.. I know that I am just being selfish.  I am such a baby and obviously love to ramble.  But one of the reasons for this blog is to let out my feelings which for one would make me better and two to let others know how I feel whether they agree with it or not.  Sorry if I offend you with anything that I put here.